far lovelier than ever before

I just feel like this should be a way of describing something in my life.
I'm not sure what though.

sweet happiness

because sometimes what is seen is much better than anything that could be said

one of those days

Some days, I wake up and find myself feeling empty. I just feel like there are some things missing from my life and that I need a small dose if them to even begin to start living my life again (okay, so maybe a little dramatic, but somewhat true).


Usually when I get this feeling I go to my closet, pull on a pair of jeans I stole from my best friend, put on a t-shirt I've had for years, followed by my brother's hoodie and my little brother's baseball hat. I put on my shoes that are so loved that they're falling apart. I find my ring that is connected to every happy thought and a bracelet that my cousin made for me.

Surrounded by every happy memory and everything familiar, I suddenly feel safe and not so empty anymore.

But I find myself turning to this outfit quite a bit.

Only thirteen more months.
I must remind myself.

I'm not Catholic, but...

This year, Lent kind of snuck up on me. I almost completely missed Ash Wednesday. Luckily, I didn't. I didn't eat any meat and am planning on not eating meat on Fridays until Easter.

I've always appreciated some of the ideas of Lent. I like giving things up just to see and say that I can. I always say that I give something up in order to support my friends. Yet I know deep down, that I give things up for myself and in all reality, the idea of giving something up to bring you closer to Christ is just a splendid tradition that I love to follow.

In past years, I have given up typical childish things that maybe didn't help me grow closer to Christ. Such as:

2008: Soda

2009: Swearing

2010: Mountain Dew

The will power I've gained from giving these things up is spectacular. This year, I intend on giving up Facebook and texting a certain friend of mine who I really shouldn't text in the first place. In order to make this Lent different, I'm not only going to show will power, but also every time I want to talk to this friend or every time I feel like going on Facebook, I'm going to read my scriptures. I'm going to maybe say a little prayer.

And through this, I hope to maybe learn something from the Catholics.