If I only had a heart

I've been thinking a lot  lately about love. Not the kind of love that girls normally think of though. It's the kind of love that you feel for your friends. It's the kind of love that a person can potentially feel for everyone. To me and those with my beliefs, it is the love of Christ. It is charity. To others, it is simply the feeling of being understanding the human race or being one with nature or being one with oneself. But whatever you believe this love is, it is humanly possible.

This quote inspired this post.

Sometimes I don't understand it. Sometimes I don't know how I can love a person so much and feel so much pure joy in their being and their being in my life but also feel completely frustrated with them and not want to even be with them. I think that's the hardest part. I feel all of these positive feelings for a person but can have such negative emotions. It doesn't make sense. Sometimes I wish I could just love each person in my life perfectly all the time. Or sometimes I feel like it would be easier if I didn't love anyone. But that's not really possible.

I don't really know what I'm trying to say. One time someone told me that she believed that I have a bottomless heart. I will forever be flattered by that statement. But I don't think I've reached that point yet. But I think I have the potential. I think everyone does, actually. Love is such a peculiar feeling. It can't be explained. It can't be measured. It is simply something that you have. It's something that you grow. That you make better. It's something you earn, something you can lose. It has so many different facets and so many different expressions. It's simply what it is.

So I guess that maybe I'm trying to say that I don't love everyone perfectly all of the time. But there are moments in my life where I've known that it was possible. And if I can feel that, then everybody can.